guess who's running on two hours of sleep on a monday! it's meeeeee!!! yeah last night was probably the worst sleep i've ever had in my life lol. oh yeah and i remembered something i said, gimme a second
there we go!!! now this blog post is pink and flashy, like i said!!!
anyway back to im tired. last night i actually tried to sleep longer than usual, but it ended up being decidedly not that. i went to bed at like 11 pm, and then i was trying to fall asleep. and trying to fall asleep. and trying to fall asleep. and i actually do for like maybe an hour and have a dream where my brother was doing some weird thing on a plane, idk it's not important. anyway then i wake up, and it's not to my alarm, because i check the clock and it's 3 am. and i dont mean the hour was 3, i mean it was exactly 3:00 in the morning. it already took me a while to fall asleep the first time, so i was even more annoyed now. so now i'm anxiously checking the time while also trying to fall asleep since monday is like The Day To Get Good Sleep, Or Else, but it still takes me like 40 minutes to fall asleep again. i was so annoyed that this time i genuinely had a dream about waking up at 6 am like normal. so then i wake up again, and it's also not to my alarm, because now it's 4 in the morning. eventually i fall asleep at like 5 and wake up to my alarm at 6 but GOD that was annoying lol. it makes me wonder why sleeping is so hard sometimes, because it's not like there was really anything different i was doing that would've thrown me off. i just hope this doesn't happen again otherwise i'll be *really* annoyed. oh yeah also happy 9/11. less people died on 9/11 than died every day during covid's peak, yet that was the new normal and 9/11 is a tragedy to never forget. i guess if it happens unexpectedly it's more memorable, or something. idk, same thing for vietnam and the gulf war and afghanistan and iraq.
(oh yeah and side note 7 hours later: jesus christ don't look at the first blog post that was so edgy oh my god)